The girl who survived!!

What's the point of coming out of it alive,

When breathing in itself is an everyday strive;

In an attempt to end this suffering and the pain,

I took a jab at the pulsating vein.

The knife turned out to be just like the humans,

Mocking at me after looking at the ruins,

Another failure was added to the list,

With signs of defeat bleeding through the wrist.

Indecisiveness it was or was it the lack of courage,

That I only had the strength to create a stirrage,

I still don't know whether it was a boon or a bane,

I still can't see the losses from the gains.

There are nights that turn into mornings,

Filled with endless sobs and growlings,

There are still days when I question my existence, 

The will to live peeking from a distance.

Never had the heart to hurt someone,

I guess that's what left the task undone, 

I know that I need to live,

But I don't have anything more to give; 

In search of a reason to make it worthwhile, 

Looking for reasons that can make me smile, 

Struggling to find my missing parts,

Cleaning the wounds of the devil's darts!!

-By Kritika Rai (guest blogger)

Rattlings of an empty mind

Hey all, I know it’s been a really long time since we have had a word. And this post is not really something related my cooking, baking, crafts or anything related to my hobby probably. This post is somewhat about me, more of an apology post you can say!

Since my life has changed so much from my last post till today, let’s begin all over again with a brief intro: I am finally enrolled in my masters program, International Business Economics and Finance, (not MBA, as some of you may have already started guessing but something close to it as I thought before), in Gokhale Institute of Politics and Economics, again one of the oldest, reputed college, to begin with. Its situated in Pune and yeah finally my hostel life has started as well but let me tell you, we are given a lot more freedom than I ever expected in my wildest dreams. (should I be happy or sad?).

So, basically, life has taken a 360-degree turn and I am pretty clueless where I am heading to, maybe just going with the flow. Committed a thousand mistakes, learned a hundred lessons, and to sum it all, this is just the beginning but one thing is for sure, “life’s changed, really changed” and I don’t know whether it's for better or for worse. I won't say I am enjoying every bit of it but I am happily adapted to it.

Honestly, if only I could spare enough time I have got thousand post on my hobbies, a hundred crafts I made, a thousand quick bits in my hostel and what not but then as you all know by now this blog has forever been ‘my-not-so-secret-diary’ and I just don’t want to limit this to restricted domains, now my every post is gonna be very unpredictable because you know what, at some point, life itself makes you realize its so unpredictable, so unique. You just have this moment to say the world all you had to and definitely, I don’t want to waste this opportunity!

A word of caution would be, please don’t judge me on my posts and most importantly I am not liable to answer any personal questions whatsoever it may be. So sincere apologies for disappearing into thin air like this. I have read all your kind wishes and messages, and I am really very grateful to each one of you who has motivated me to start writing again and further you can expect a post every week on a completely unexpected domain. Keep flooding your love throughout,

loads of love and gratitude

Ritu,

the unexpected blogger :))